There's this guy in my school that reminds me of Arwah. perhaps, it was because of his sportiness and his charisma that can actually attract people. Yes, attract. I would have this tendency to just stare at him as he walks pass. He aldy has a gf and I have a boy in mind too. But it is because he reminds me of arwah, that looking at him makes me happy at times. Sorry to say this, but yes, i do miss arwah sometimes. I do have some regrets but hate to feel that way because if things were to change, i wouldnt be in this situation now. I am blessed with where i am now. Thank you YA ALLAH (: I never fail to feel so proud of him. I am helpless at the same time because I too want to be like him. I want to be perfect for heaven. I want to be a srsly good muslim. and insya'allah, there will be a guy to guide me and that guy will be my husband. I cant help but thinking of early marriage because I rather get married than to do such zinahs. even looking into each others' eyes with full of love is sinful. so, yea, early marriage anyone ? nah, just joking. I'm just sick of money sometimes, they are so cruel to human mind.