Tmr's the start for MCE. I don't know if i am feeling confident or not about the papers. But I am learning to keep calm and believe in myself. With this, I am able to not take my time revising but to be able to revise effectively. and store it in my memory safe and useful to whatever i store it for.

GOOD LUCK EVERYONE. 

Honestly, I was clueless in JC. but now i know what i want to achieve. Alhamdulillah(: MCE here i come. I'm shaking while typing that out. need confidence and believe in myself to overpower that awful fear.

What am I doing ? Like, srsly ? I try to hide the results from my dad but one day he still will find out. Ugh, i just dont like my parents to get involved with my school thing, let me work everything out and show it to you when i achieve because i hunger for your proud-ness over me and not your disappointment. Hais. But still, they are the one who gave me money and paid my school fees. sighsighsigh. I dont want to deal with the "WHY ARE YOUR RESULTS LIKE THESE?!". yea. you should have asked the crazy teachers or me- for picking a freaking far school. Sometimes, i just see school as a waste of time, especially when it gets closer to a very important exam. I rather stay at home and finish up the revision that I was longing to finish up. Okay, girl. Better get your head in the game and not your mind in desire. I hate desires, it side-tracks me- A LOT. sighsighsigh

I remember after prom, when i woke up crying because i realize that he was gone. But that was only for a moment but this time, he'll be there for 2 years. don't get me wrong though, he'll still be coming back to spend his holidays in S'pre. Can't wait for him to get back and all of us can just gather again and have the time of our lives(: I had a lot of fun hanging out with them. and i hope that feeling will never change. Everyone was so emotional on tht day. Never have i see guys cry because of a friend. who wouldn't? they have been friends since sec 1, all the memories just came flashing back.and all the fun times they had. I only had some because i became close to him in sec 3. But they were meaningful memories. fun ones. though i may annoy him, atleast it made him smile and laugh. Of course, i wouldn't continue annoying someone if they are really annoyed. I have my limits and i have my own status to protect. I don't want to be labelled 'the annoying bitch'. i rather be labelled 'the annoying friend'. The day of jalan raya, he kept looking at me and i kept looking at him. I could see that he was happy to see khairul so happy with me. I could see it in his eyes 'they are meant for each other'. i remember that day, i was so terrified because his face was so calm; which feels wrong. But he was just happy and sad that that will be his last jalan raya before he flies off to UK. At the airport, a friend said tht maybe he still has some feelings for me when looking back to sec 4 when he confessed to me. well, i don't think so. I just know he moved on from amira and he's just yearning for that right girl to come by. If she comes, she's going to be lucky. while i have the guy that loves me and it is so right to feel his love. it feels like home. we may vend our anger on one another but i'll always blame it on the stress. I am a lady. A lady usually thinks with her heart and a man usually thinks with his brain only a few thinks with both heart and brain. Going back to the story, i'll always pray for your safety and may Allah be by your side always and make you a better muslim(: Amin.