There's this guy in my school that reminds me of Arwah. perhaps, it was because of his sportiness and his charisma that can actually attract people. Yes, attract. I would have this tendency to just stare at him as he walks pass. He aldy has a gf and I have a boy in mind too. But it is because he reminds me of arwah, that looking at him makes me happy at times. Sorry to say this, but yes, i do miss arwah sometimes. I do have some regrets but hate to feel that way because if things were to change, i wouldnt be in this situation now. I am blessed with where i am now. Thank you YA ALLAH (: I never fail to feel so proud of him. I am helpless at the same time because I too want to be like him. I want to be perfect for heaven. I want to be a srsly good muslim. and insya'allah, there will be a guy to guide me and that guy will be my husband. I cant help but thinking of early marriage because I rather get married than to do such zinahs. even looking into each others' eyes with full of love is sinful. so, yea, early marriage anyone ? nah, just joking. I'm just sick of money sometimes, they are so cruel to human mind.

Ya Allah, berilah aku kesabaran. I am at the verge of this bad temper. I can just loose it anytime and just drop my own status. Hopefully, that wont happen. I realize that I am serious this few days. So fierce. Astaghfirullah. Please give me patience... Please don't let me loose it. Surely, i do  not want them to be the victim. I do not want them to judge me as I do not even want to judge them in the first place. Please,patience...

Doing EoM. Astaghfirullah. Setengah mati aku ni.I MUST PERSEVERE ! while doing this, my friend txted to teman buka kt rumah dia dulu. hais. kak, rumah aku dkt dgn tmpt dia, abeh nk g jauhjauh? hais. no thanks. sorry, bukan apa bt i'm so stress doing my EoM. The time that I will take going to your house and buka there, i can use it for my EoM. So, Nope. Sorry..

New Blog, New Life? Nah, New Posts

"help meeee, i am being swollen by marshmallowsss" hehehe. Good morninggg.
It's 1030 am and i am in the midst of doing my EoM. I stopped doing it for a while to create a new blog. pathetic, huh? yea. I think I am easily distracted or I just feel that I need to do something before doing my EoM. I feel sleepy and trying to overcome the hunger; I didn't eat Sahur jusy now. Hais. Bangun je dh 613 am.
Showered Kiki just now. She just ran to me and meow-ed freaking loud at me just now. I think she was angry with me or something. I didn't buy her "please pity me" eyes when I showered her. HEHE. Now, she's all wet. Wet pussy. HAHA. sounds wroonngg O.O