I had just finished watching P.S I LOVE YOU online. I just kept on thinking if my love ones were not to be here, i'll cry-cry for a year i think. and the suddenly at the end of the show i felt the pain and emptiness that lady who is now a strong one have been feeling. the feeling of crying each and everyday to the smack in the face immediate reality change. to wake up to a new day, a new page, starting with absent presence of the ones who'll be the first name to pop up on your phone screen. that feeling of emptiness and lump in your throat for the whole day. that tiring feeling of waking up to a headache because you cried in your sleep last night. i felt that before. and i am proud that i went through the next day with strength and that was done with a day out with my lovely date. i love him each day. and i just love screaming at him and still feel the love. thank god for giving us the opportunity to meet each other and forgive me for my sins with him. love does do stupid things to us, humans. i don't hope for an eternal love but i am just blessed with whatever He has given me and i thank him for that. 

- i'm being sensitive now. that's a sign- gonna get the bloody week soon.